So much has happened since my last post - I wrote a little about it here, if you'd like to read. I always vow to be a more consistent blogger, but the only thing that seems to remain consistent is my inconsistency. Oh well...there's only time for so much.
Through all of my recent adventures and experiences, I've come to realize some really cool things & I thought I'd take a moment on this overcast, Sunday afternoon to share. Grab your favorite iced drink, or maybe crank the ac and put on your sweats (as I like to do...shhhh, that'll be our little secret - till the next power bill arrives atleast) and read on...
Over the past 2 weeks or so, I've found myself being a listening ear to many friends and acquaintances around me. Not one word shared has gone unfelt, unheard, uncared or unprayed-for. (I'll come back to this in a minute.) My husband shared a video of Louie Giglio from the "How Great is Our God" tour (click the link to watch, I highly recommend it. It puts life into perspective.) in the high school youth group last week and it struck a heart string. For those who don't have time to watch, Louie shares pictures of our solar system and beyond to give us an idea of how vast God's creation really is and how small we are in the grand picture. This has been something God's been repeatedly showing me since my last post.
When taking off from our small little airport a few weeks ago, I looked down and saw my "city" below - becoming smaller and smaller with each second that passed, till it was but a blurry spot below the clouds. "That's my world," I thought. "All of my problems, my fears, my possessions, my loved ones, my memories - most of them belong right there and (morbid, but true) it could all be wiped away in an instant and the world would go on." With that thought came, "but somehow in the smallness of my world, God cares." He cares. He cares so much that He called me by name and invited me into personal relationship with Him. The only thing my mind can possibly relate this to is ants in an ant farm - it's as if I had an ant farm on my kitchen counter and I somehow knew each ant personally. Imagine if I named them and then invited them to get to know me. Sure they're busy little creatures, running frantically to find their next grain to offer to their queen, they're distracted, but they've been invited and with that invitation comes my love, affection, care, protection and concern. That sounds ridiculous, I know, but it's the only image I can put to God calling me out of this world and offering me life & love. I so quickly get caught up in my little world and I (meaning to or not) make it all about me. It's amazing and awesome that He cares. In the midst of say, caring for and tending to the universe, He takes time to listen to and care for me (and you if you let Him).
Bringing it back to the burdens I've carried for my friends who are hurting. I think of the bridge in the song "Hosanna":
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity
That song has become an ernest prayer of mine, and I'm seeing it happen before my very eyes. He's breaking my heart for the things my friends and family (& the world) around me are experiencing and I believe this is a very small taste of the burden He feels for our pain and our heartache. He cares. I don't know who's reading this and/or what you're going through, but as my heart breaks for the people around me these days, know that He cares whether you know Him personally or not. Contrary to what the media would like you to believe, there's a God who created YOU and He cares for His creation.
Lots of love and prayers being sent to people around me these days...